Wednesday, November 4, 2009

What The Hell Am I Doing Here?



     After a long day of trying to make unrealistic corporate dreams come true, I found myself without a topic worth writing about, nor the energy with which to even try to come up with something.

     Then it came to me, not like an epiphany but more in the form of an email from an old friend.  An old friend who is a writer, a real writer with a real writing job and a real writing husband who also has a real writing job.  Anyway, in this email she says that she loves this little blog of mine and at that moment, I thought to myself, or maybe I said it out loud, either way it doesn't matter, "What the Hell am I doing here?"

     I started this blog not ever thinking that anyone would read it even once let alone follow it or comment on whatever rubbish happens to spray out of my head on any given day.  I'll be honest, I did do a little self promoting on FB and by way of a little word of mouth, but even then the thought of people actually reading this never really occurred to me.  Call it stage fright or lack of confidence in my skills.  My wife is the same way.  She is an artist, a good one too, who doesn't like her own work or think that it is as good as it really is.  Is that normal?  Besides, what's the big deal?  I'm not selling a product here.  I didn't serve you a heaping plate of nachos with a long hair in it or anything.  It's just a blog, chill out fat boy!

     In a way it feels like a secret is exposed.  Not a huge life altering, Michael Vick dog fighting ring, Heidi Fleiss prostitution ring, Monica Lewinski Oval Office kind of secret. No, this is more of an I like to stack 8 or 9 cookies with a glass of milk and mow them down when no one else is looking, pick that flake at the edge of my nostril when I think I am  out of the view of other motorists, wear these jeans twice without washing them kind of secret.

     I LIKE TO WRITE!  I LIKE IT A LOT! I MAY OR MAY NOT BE ANY GOOD AT IT BUT I AM GOING TO CONTINUE TO WRITE UNTIL I NO LONGER WANT TO WRITE!  That my friends, was liberating.

     Listen, I'm not sure why you people have decided to read this blog but I do know that I am glad you are here.  So far it's been a lot of fun and I hope at the very least we can all have a few laughs and share some stories.

     For a guy who wasn't sure what the heck was going to happen when I sat in front of the keyboard tonight, I sure did spill a lot of ink didn't I?

     

 

               

7 comments:

  1. And that, John, is how it all starts...just having the desire to DO something.
    And by the way, I enjoy your writing. You're good at it. YOURS is one of the blogs that I really enjoy reading.

    That might not be much, but it's true!
    Ink away, my friend!
    :-)

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  2. Nancy, how fitting that you are the first to respond to this one. It is your writing that keeps me going on this little adventure. I have actually had this thought that I will keep posting cool pictures and have something semi-witty to say but man I hope to some day write like that Nancy. As f8 would have it (please pardon the obvious pun), you actually enjoy my stuff too. That's pretty cool.

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  3. Well, I enjoy both of your blogs VERY much!
    @f8hasit @John

    I also enjoy writing and I'm learning a lot from both of you. Now that I'm starting to feel a little better I plan on doing much more with my blog:) Thanks you two, for inspiring me. xo

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  4. I'm glad you decided to write and I appreciate your comments on mine. I used to blog on another site that I need to get away from. I wasn't sure if anyone would read me over here.

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  5. I liked your writing style in a comment you left at Nat's blog, and took at look at yours. Lo & behold, I like your writing style in the blog, too. : )

    Keep up the writing, even when you don't think you have anything to write about. Sometimes getting it all out "on paper" leads to places you didn't know you needed to go!

    CarrieMarie

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  6. I'm just so impressed that you post so often...you are an inspiration because I always intend to blog a few times a week but more likely only find time once if that. Keep on truckin'!

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  7. And that's the reason you SHOULD write...because you like it!

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